Tuesday, January 6, 2009 @ 9:17:00 PM
my utmost reflections for a few days.
dedicated to; _____
why did you have to come in?
why did you have to excel in everything?
im sorry, i dont mean to blame you for your hardworkingness and intelligence.
you are pretty, smart, hardworking and polite.
who wouldn't like you anyways?
i was the only girl working and didnt receive much praises.
with you now, everybody's starting to buck up.
makes me feel so worthless.
everyone likes you.
im nothing. im nothing.
dedicated to; cousins and beloved.
as we grow older each year, our distance drifts apart.
i never had the courage to interact with you.
guys how i missed you so.
after you moved you never came back.
and even if you did you never did much interacting.
and you gave me the reluctant look.
i miss the old times alot.
whenever we're seperated likethat im torn.
really torn.
i cannot bear to see us like strangers.
many a times i feel like giving up; to let go.
yet i couldn't bear to do so.
a few years ago when we didnt know matters we had lots of fun.
but now everything's changed.
guys you mean alot to me.
istillcantforgetyou. andIMY.
__________i get abandoned easily, just because i dont take the initiative to interact.
im too used to being a loner that i dontknow how to mix around with you people.
im sorry if i irk you. this is me.
i cannot be open if there's strangers around.
im sorry.